oh no:

oh no
what did you do today
where did you go
and what did you say
maybe
you think it's all right
you think it's okay
and everything's fine tonight

falling
down the well again
close your eyes
reach the end
useless
everything's done
everyone's gone
only one left, is me

oh no
what did ido today
where did igo
and what did i say
maybe
i think it's all right
i think it's okay
and everything's fine tonight

lying:

and maybe i don't have to run
you say that maybe i'm the one
but i don't believe you
i think you're lying

perhaps the loneliness will flee
and in it's place just i will be
but i don't believe it
i think i'm lying

so tell me what am i to do
with all my dreams of me and you
but i don't believe me
i think i'm lying

that all my dreams are dumb i know
so stupid yeah they tell me so
but i don't believe them
i think they're lying

again:

he said i love you
she said i know

and now that i love you
won't you be mine
no she said i won't
and i can't tell you why

he said i need you
she said i need you too

and though i want you
i can't (i can't) give myself
why oh why he cried
because it wouldn't do

he said i'm leaving
she said goodbye

and then as he walked away
she called out to him
you may go but i know
i'll see you once again (x2)

memory:

it's not your going
that frightens me
it's more the loss of
your memory

goodbye is such a funny word
what's good about it
i never understood
and though i have to see you go
the joy and laughter is all i'll ever know
all i'll ever know
all i'll ever know (x2)

your eyes, your lips, your hair, your smile
the way your finger fit in mine
your walk, your laugh, and everything
i'll treasure forever (x2)

it's not your going
that fightens me
it's more the loss of
your memory

away:

why don't you go
away
i'm tired
of watching you
leaving me

why don't you go
away
why don't you leave just like you
said you would
i can't take
the wait anymore
why don't you go
why don't you go

why don't you go
away

dialogue:

I don’t know how to begin. Not properly, at least. There’s so much to say, a rapid thrumming in my mind that quivers with meaning but too fast for me, too voracious, too scary. I wish I knew what I was doing. It's frightening finding your way through, when you don’t know where you are, where you’ve been, what your doing in doing what you do. Sometimes it's exhilarating, true, crazy and happy and full of bright fluffy things, but then I remember that I don’t know what I’m doing or how to begin. It's frustrating, I’m sure you understand, right? You’ve been here? I think you have, we all have, or I have and you’re all me, somewhere. We’re all you, too. They have me sedated. It's pleasant enough, reminds me of home. Dark and slow, squinty. I don’t think that they like what I’m thinking, so I’ll start thinking different things. If they don’t like that, then they have a problem, and I’m not sure how to help them. Have I started yet? Have I told you anything? Yesterday, the nurse came. She’s the nice one, good cop bad cop. Smiles and makes some mouth noise, like you make at puppies who are not sure that this is where they are supposed to be, they’re too new, you know. She puts the food on the table, and helps me eat it. They took away my arms with a magic ivory suit. I’m sure they’ll give them back. Samantha. I know that you know her. I don’t remember why. What was I thinking of, again? I don’t know how to begin. So I’ll start. When I was six, the man I didn’t know died and I had to go to the quiet party where people talked like I wasn’t there and a smelly man stayed inside a box. The clothes were itchy, I remember. I didn’t like the man in the box, but I had to go and look at him, and I remember that his eyes were closed, even though it wasn’t quiet enough to sleep. I didn’t like death, then. Do you know? Death is something of a bully. Something. Bully something. Bloody good show, that, and the brits take the cake, with their practical view on life, so dreary and wet and foggy squinty like. The brits got bombed, did you know, and they hate the scots and the irish, and the french, I think. Henry told me so, five times. Or the five Henries told me once. The brits understand death, more of them have died then of us, I think, since they’re older. By half. Lithium, lithium tastes like vanilla-extract-boiled cabbage leaves. It makes me sneezy. I remember. I’m sorry, but I’m going now. I’m tired, I think. Tell Samantha I said hello. I’ll try again tomorrow, lets start again tomorrow.

despise:

do you want me
do you need me here
or is this just your last joke
then you disappear
tell me stories
leave the truth for lies
smile as you rip out my throat
help me to despise

looking back i
take eternity
and i'm waiting by the door
such sincerity
will you say it
will you draw me back
in the halfway place i live
welded to my track

i could hate you
i could curse your name
but i can't do it alone
not while you still reign

time's a spiral
rising up to freedom
that i hold so dear

love is only what
we wish we had when
everything is gone

do you want me
do you need me here
or is this just your last joke
then you disappear

fumble on:

took a couple steps away from everything
and left your ghost behind to watch me
fumble on across the ice
watch me fumble on

i haven't got it yet
i haven't got it yet
what am i supposed to do
to keep on moving on away
from you

aren't you gonna ask me where i'm going now
and what i hope to do when i'm
away from you across the ice
when i've gone away

suppose i promise you
suppose i promise you
would you let me walk away
and keep on moving on away
from you

killing me:

don't remember
where i've been
what i've done
who iam
every day seems
just a grey screen
where the pictures
skitter down

maybe here i
lose my focus
start to crumble
down to ash
at the bottom
of the bottle
stop and wonder
who i am

what did you say
ican't hear you
i'm forgetting
how to be
just another
drunken loser
getting high here
by himself

doesn't matter
i'm not listening
i can't see you
or your frown
through the fog that
i've created
i think that i'm
killing me

(stand in the) circle:

you didn't say you had to go
you just weren't here
you didn't say "I'll see you later"
you just disappeared

and here I am in the tomorrow
of the today we had last night
standing forlorn before the mirror
thinking that none of this is right

see the boy be
taste the love he
never felt she
understood

eat breakfast listening to silence
drive off to work for once on time
get home at six, can't stop pretending
that all of this will turn out fine

around my head the world is spinning
i still haven't cried
it's like I'm sleep walking in winter
and wolves start circling outside

see the boy be
standing lonely
in the circle
of his loss

see the boy be
taste the love he
never felt she
understood

alone again when darkness falls
standing by the phone
the circle of my own regretting
stand in the circle on my own

see the boy be
standing lonely
in the circle
of his loss

see the boy be
taste the love he
never felt she
understood

**originally recorded by omphaloskepsis
**vox, lyrics, acoustic bass = yook
**everything else = obscurity

shreds:

please
show me the sky
give me a chance
don't let me die

please
take me some place
don't leave me here
shredding away

please
i'm on my knees
give me one word
give me release

please
don't leave me here
curled in a ball
shredding away

please
don't leave me here
curled in a ball
shredding away

sunny day:

sunny day
he looks for you
in the clouds above his head
he looks for you

did you wonder
if he'd miss you
now you know beyond a doubt
he would miss you

space cadet:

been to pluto
been to saturn
seen it all
seen it all

been to hades
been to heaven
seen it all
seen it all

"I know you can hear, and I know what you're up to. Listen up honey, listen up good. ... I'm not some stupid little space cadet, I'm not an ignorant little baby. ... I can see through your...I can see through your game. ... And I don't need this. I don't. ... I don't. Need. This."

monster:

I asked you,
"where are you
going now?"
you said, "I...
I don't know you.
I can't tell you.
I can't be your saving grace...
I don't know you.
I can't tell you.
I can't be your saving grace."

past the mumbled fornication in the corner of the hall
stumble out to find the answer to the question, "is this all"
shuffle foot and swinging arm, and you squint against the sky
peter out before the finish, falling down despite the lies
say good bye, say goodbye, to the monster in your shoes
say good bye, say goodbye, say goodbye

red flag (sos cover):

summarily halted by me in a race
communists used to fly me in your face
blue and white, I'd be all right
but a red flag can't find a friend

I'm the most villified capture on your board
never give way to the rage anymore
with a snake or a sygil, I'm always in a pickle
but a red flag can't find a friend

white flags mean I'm sorry
black flags kill the bugs
checkered flags mean victory
rainbow flags mean hugs

some senator's witch hunt burning on lawns
some hollywood brat pack can fly out at dawn
I could be the most violent femme, some lonely pornstar
but a red flag can't find a friend

if you were colour blind and carefree I'd live in your home
if you were colour blind and carefree I'd live in your home
blue and white, I'd be all right
but a red flag can't find a friend

white flags mean I'm sorry
black flags kill the bugs
checkered flags mean victory
rainbow flags mean hugs

violet:

let's call her violet
let's see what she'll do
y'see cuz violet
has to have it her way
every day

violet says, "come with me"
and you go, and you go
violet says, "leave me be"
and you go, and you go

everytime you
you say goodbye you
you think it could be
the last time, cuz
violet wants it
violet wants it
her way
her
way

just a toy:

I'm just a toy
for you to play with
and now you're gone
I wonder what I'd be if I
could have told you no

I haven't finished yet
I'm still debating
what to take
before I blow up
before I lose it
before I try

I'm just a toy
for you to play with
and now you're bored
a kiss before you leave me here
in your wake, alone

okay:

I'm okay
you're okay
we're ... okay
that's the lie(line) you've been telling me for years
that's the line(lie) that I told myself for years

"pass the peas
thanks so much
by ... the way
say goodbye, I'm not staying here tonight"
and I did what you asked, I said goodbye

how did we
through the years
lose ... our way
nevermind, I'm just crying in my beer
nevermind, I'm just crying in my beer

words:

wish I had the words to say the things you need to hear from me
but I'm empty, echoing inside
see the pain you try to keep a secret, I know why you cry
still I'm empty, echoing inside

hold my hand, I'm thinking,
let me hold you, but you can't
hear me thinking, and the words
they escape me

let go:

don't you think it's time
to let it go unclench your fist
just close your eyes and breathe
can't you see it's time
been long enough and no one cares
and now you're just alone
it's not a crime - to be alone
it's not a crime

I know it feels like just yesterday
the other day it all went down
you have to understand that it's been years
outside your head
and no one else remembers her at all
you have to understand that it's been years
outside your head
since it all fell down

why do I have to tell you this
be the bad guy in your shadow play
illuminate that bastard logic
that you hid away

I just hope I've come in time
so wake up, boy, wake up
wake up, boy, wake up